In Memory of Tara Maria

In May 31,2007 our Rottweiller Tara was diagnosed with Osteosarcama which is bone cancer in her right leg. A week before this Tara was playing ball with our other Rottweiller and she got knocked down. The same day Tara was jumping in the water sprinkler with our other rotty. The following week at times we noticed Tara would make a noise getting up then walked funny.

I was getting ready for work one day kept calling my husband wondering when he was coming home. He told me to stop crying your acting like she's dying or something she probably misses her daddy. So then I called my sister in-law to come over because I new something wasn't right. Tara laid at front door all day wouldn't move even when my sister-in law come over and Tara loved her.

When Tara heard her daddy pull in the driveway she tried getting up it was very hard for her but she did it. Tara was my husband side kick lol. So I called the vet and made appointment and we went when hubby got home. Our Vet was in surgery that day so we saw another Vet and she said oh Tara did something to her knee bring her back tomorrow. My husband said again see you worried and get your self all worked up for nothing. I said sorry but I new something wasn't right and I wanted to get her checked out just in case.

So the next day morning we dropped Tara of at the vets and they took x-rays and I'll never forgot the call that my husband got. Then they told him well it's not good Tara has bone cancer called Ostesarcama in her right leg that was so devastating to our family. Our vet wanted to take x-rays of her lungs to make sure it didn't spread there and then she'll call back. Well Tara didn't have cancer in her lungs thank god. So we had a few different options we could choose from. So we took the option of bringing her home letting her be comfortable and gave her medications that only costed $23.00. Our vet said medications will only pass time and that we should have 6-8 months left with her but she couldn't guarantee that.

We had 4 weeks after we found out she had bone cancer. If we amputated her leg also she couldn't guarantee that the cancer wouldn't spread plus that costed a lot of $$. We also decided that it wouldn't of been fair to Tara because she had 9 wonderful great years with our family she was a Spoiled Rotten Girl!!! The medications that Tara was on worked she got back up and walked went out side at times ran and we said Tara stop sweet pea you can't do that. The last 2 days before Tara passed she laid at the front door and couldn't move. Today it's been 3 weeks since she's been gone it hurts as we speak writing this story about her. Why did Tara want to lay in front of the door? Because she knew it was time for her to go and that she always was there protecting our home and family.

Well that night we decided that we don't want her to suffer any more so tomorrow we have to say goodbye and let her rest in peace. I'll never forgot that night it was so hard on everybody to say there goodbyes to her. I thought Tara was going die in my arms that night I just kept praying lord please have Tara wait a couple more hours until they open. We decided when we found out that we wanted her to pass away at home but if you never experienced this before and then it's right in front of you we changed our minds right away. That would be a lot harder on us if we had her pass away at home. Tara passed away June 25,2007 in my arms at the vets that was the hardest thing for us to finally say goodbye. I just kept kissing her and talking with her and then I said Tara we're gonna miss you so much you were the best pet we ever had and nobody will ever take your spot. We know it's time to let you go!

Tara had puppies last year and we have one and my brother has the other I told her that they will be well taken care of. The vet came back in the room for the last shot I asked my husband if he wanted to hold his little sweet pea he said honey your doing a great job. He was talking to her on the side of me. That night I asked him why he didn't want to hold her he told me because it hurt him so much .It's gonna be very hard not having his little sweet pea around. I picked out Tara and that day we brought her home he carried her out the door. Tara always new when our vehicles came in the driveway she was outside wagging her little nub so happy to greet us.

Tara was spoiled she slept with us and was always by our side no matter what. Watching tv she was always there under our feet at times you forgot she was there and you would almost trip on her . You could dress Tara up for Halloween etc. The picture that is with this story my husband picked. Whenever something bad happened Tara was always there to comfort us she would lay beside you and her head on your lap to help comfort you and take the pain away. Tara was a very smart Rottweiller!!! We have so many wonderful stories about her we could be hear for hours.

But when Christmas comes this year it's gonna be hard because Tara always opened her own Christmas gifts along with our family. We'll never forgot this one year Tara helped open our kids gifts after she was done with hers. Tara you were a spoiled rotten baby girl your missed so much! It hurts us thinking your not with our family anymore but you're always in our hearts and thoughts no matter what we do. Just remember the joke I always told daddy that I thought he treated his sweet pea better than me at times lol. He always said hey that's my little sweet pea she's my girl Tara!!! We miss you sweetie! We want to let others know that you can email us at any time we understand what your going through. We're here for you and your family.

07-21-07 Today we got the call that Tara's ashes were ready for us. We had to ask our best friend to go pick our Sweet Pea up because it would have been so hard going back to the vets. It's been almost 4 weeks this coming Monday. When Sweet Pea came in the house today we saw the bag it was so devastating to us that finally she's back with us. The first thing I did was look in the bag and took out the box and gave her a big kiss and said glad your finally back with your family. Then I took Tara in my room all by myself went to the Candle Memorial site held her close to me and the tears went rolling down my face. Our best friend is hear right now playing cards with my husband as soon as she leaves it's going to be very hard on him. This was his Baby Girl!!!

Now today it finally hit home to me that Tara is really gone for good it's so hard to look at her pictures with out crying. Last night hubby just wanted to be alone and I let him gosh It was hard. The next day I thought he would talk to me about things nothing. He told me the next night I don't want to hear what your doing online I know your doing a great job. Tara was treated like one of our children she was a spoiled Rotten Rottweiller!! Sweet Pea we love you and you'll always will be in our hearts we miss you lots!!! You'll never be forgotten things are so different not having you hear with us. So our hearts go out to other family's that are going through this.

God Bless,

Kevin & Sarah